Archive for October, 2013

Is it ever going to be enough?

Posted in Uncategorized on October 29, 2013 by riseabovefitnessoc

Why did I start Bleeding Through in 1999? I recently started asking myself that question as I start getting ready to leave for our first leg of the US farewell tour. Did I start this band so people can scrutinize the music and our image?  Did I start this band so I could see die hard supporters turn into die hard haters when a new trend came through?  Did I start this band so I could create jobs for my friends only to see the actual members of the band struggle to pay our bills?  Did I start this band so I could be faced with business decisions and to lose friends?  Did I start this band to have competition with other bands and fight for the same scraps off the table? Did I start this band so I lose touch with my family and friends because of the amount of time spent on the road?  Did I start this band so I could become bitter at the music industry?  Did I start this band so I could sink into depression and battle being Bipolar which led me to  hide my emotions from the ones closest to me and often times think about erasing myself?  Did I start this band so we could pour all our emotion into our music and be so proud of it so people can go out of their way to tell you they hate it?  Did I start this band so we could starve and eat off of other people tables and dumpster dive and spend all of our money to make it to the next show only to have it canceled? No No No!  Did I start touring to sleep in a Van without heat in the middle of the winter and sleep on bathroom floors and truck stops cause it was warm only to be called a “rockstar” the first time Bleeding Through stepped off a tour bus? The answers are all FUCK NO!

Ill tell you why I started this band. I was a 19 year old kid that hated his reflection in the mirror and hated himself. I had major emotional issues that I hide from everyone and music was my release and together with my friends we got to create music for each other and expel all of our emotional issues through that music. I was lost and depressed with no way out. It was either write my issues on paper and scream them into a mic or expel my life with a bullet through my head. That is why I started this band!

Now getting ready to embark on our first leg of the US farewell tour it seems what we are doing is still not good enough. Even though we are 100% doing this tour for the ones that have supported us through out the years we are still getting backlash. I understand that we may not be playing your city on this tour and we apologize. We are playing the places that we could find promoters to book us a show. Plain and simple. In response to not playing  sertain towns on this tour we have gotten comments like “you were my favorite band but not I am going to burn your records”, “thanks for letting your fans down” and “you guys are probably just going to the places that you make the most money”. Seeing comments like this really put things into perspective to me now. My response to those comments is FUCK YOU! If we aren’t worth it to drive a few miles away from your city to see Bleeding Through one more time then so be it. We are going to play the cities we are booked in in front of people who give a shit about our music. We are going to play hard and fast like it’s our last time on that stage because guess what? It’s going to be our last time. Hope to see you at the shows. If not I refuse to lose sleep over it.

I’m going to end this with a quote from Paul Rudd’s character in the movie Forgetting Sara Marshall “when life hands you lemons say fuck the lemons and bail”

-Brandan

 

Bah Bah Black Sheep

Posted in Uncategorized on October 19, 2013 by riseabovefitnessoc

I didn’t started lifting weights to conform. Quite the contrary I started lifting weights cause I needed an escape from the conformist society of Newport Beach. I never really fit in with the popular kids. I didn’t party and do the same things as most. I had a few close friends that I played music with and went to Hardcore and Punk shows and that was it. I saw most people growing up having a complete disregard for their bodies and that was the cool thing. To “not give a fuck”. I got made fun of because I went to the gym on friday night instead of going to parties. I was an outcast of sorts. I was the black sheep and always did my own thing my own way. Those who grew up with me even nicknamed me “sheep”. My approach to my music career was the same way as my adolecents. Bleeding Through and even before that with 18 Visions and Throwdown we did things our own way and didn’t conform. Now looking back at the last decade and seeing the career that Bleeding Through had it had it’s ups and down and we could have very well sold out and tried to go mainstream but we didn’t. We stuck to what made us happy in the first place. Playing music together and creating the scary music that we loved to play and playing the fuck out out of that music no matter if there were 5 people watching or 5,000 people. We would just grip it and rip it. So looking back I can honestly say I am glad that Bleeding Through never got commercial success. I think that would have just ruined the emotion to the music and the connection to our loyal fans. Now my approach to fitness is the same. I don’t want to conform. I set out to build a culture that those can find solace in. Through fitness the same as with Bleeding Through I want to help mold an attitude and a sense of empowerment. I believe that bettering ones bodies and health can change a persons mental short-commings. Along with music it has saved my life more times than one and helped my mental issues. I want Rise Above Fitness to be the black sheep. The underground. The Punk rock. The Attitude. The culture. So what I am getting at is do things your own way. No matter how many hills you have to climb. If you have a vision go for it and don’t let words and negative opinions stand in your way. If you don’t reach commercial success who gives a shit. It is better to know that if you look back at your past you aren’t embarrassed because you did it your own way. Be the black sheep.

-peace I’m out of here

Brandan Schieppati